FEAR OF COMMITMENT

I WANTED to put down a few words about my experience as the telephone answering chair person for the last few months. To be honest, I did not want to take on this position. I was apprehensive. It seemed to me to be a thankless job, demanding much time, with little reward. The Big Book tells me that fear is "an evil and corroding thread" in my life. I have to watch for it, or it will dominate me. This decision was no exception. In going to God with my fear, I was directed to take the position. In doing so, I have found that my fears have been unfounded. First, this job is not thankless. As in all service positions in AA, people appreciate the effort made by our trusted servants. In regard to the amount of time required, there is a commitment involved, but I have found that it is definitely not overwhelming. The time spent on coordinating telephone answering has been infinitely rewarded by the experience of going to groups that I do not normally visit, meeting new people, seeing old friends, and being a part of the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous. My spirit has been buoyed by the enthusiasm of new groups coming on board and the willingness of individual to step up and help when there is a dire need.