NOT NOT QUITTING

I WAS at a meeting the other night and the speaker was talking about having thoughts about quitting drinking before she came into the rooms of AA. It got me to thinking. I do not remember ever having thoughts of quitting drinking myself. I thought about not going to particular bars, because I knew I would not leave until closing time. I thought about the times I backed out of a night out, because I knew if I went I would not make it to work the next day. But the thought of not drinking? It never crossed my mind. I didn't even consider that such a thing was possible. After all, it wasn't the drink that caused the problems; it was where I was, what I had to do the next day. And then, of course, I can't forget the people I knew who expressed their thoughts about my not drinking. But I did not have a problem; they did. They had a problem with my drinking. I drank with all levels of drinkers. Some, when I did start going to AA, said I could not be an alcoholic because I did not drink as much as they did. Others would tell me I could drink, but I needed to not get drunk. Do we tell newborns not to breathe? How could it be possible to drink and not get drunk?