Becoming Whole

I really thought I was unique and different when I came into AA. I was just about to come out as a gay man when I got sober in 1982. Getting sober was the easy part of being a recovering alcoholic in the AA program. I was very conflicted and had one hell of a time integrating my sexuality and my spiritual beliefs, to the point of feeling torn apart. I was riddled with fear and insecurity. I drank so I didn’t have to feel pain and loneliness all the time. Drinking was my way of escaping from the reality of my life.