A Pillar of AA

Back in the middle 70's, when I was new to AA, I heard Shorty H., a past Washington Area delegate from the 1960s, speak. Since I had only a few days in AA, I didn't relate to most of what he was talking about or what he said. However, he did speak about something that interested me. He spoke about wanting to be "a pillar of AA." In order to do that, he became involved in service, believing that would help him to feel more a part of AA and, possibly, a bit more worthy of AA. He said that, even as a delegate, he didn't feel "worthy enougth" to be a pillar of AA, but he kept trying and kept wondering what it was and how do you get to be one? Then Shorty started talking about his AA experiences after he rotated out from being a delegate.