Go for the Ride
It took me 10 years just to get into service. That is certainly not anything to brag about, and it was only by God’s grace that I remained dry. In the beginning I attended meetings, got a sponsor and began the journey through the Steps. Unfortunately, I didn’t understand that the Steps become a way of life only if I continue to practice them daily. A career-ending injury allowed me to move back to my home state, but I had a difficult time adjusting to AA. Finding a sponsor was strenuous due to my bad attitude, and then I selected a man who got drunk the week I asked him. Of course, that meant I didn’t need a sponsor, so I didn’t have one. Next to go were prayer, reading the Big Book and finally, meetings. A new outbreak of misery was the result. Eventually, I learned that I didn’t need to drink to suffer from alcoholism. In the middle of yet another self-imposed crisis, I was unable to see my sad state of untreated alcoholism.