From Believer to Non-Believer

My journey in AA began in 1985 and I have been sober ever since. In the beginning, I wanted sobriety because I had hit an emotional bottom. I was very willing to accept the program without any reservations. I did what the literature suggested and initially I used my home group as my Higher Power. I did not give God much thought until I got to the Third Step. My first sponsor is dead now, but he was a firm believer in God. He suggested that instead of focusing on a struggle with the whole God thing, I focus instead on the fact that I couldn't sober up by myself. I needed the help of others who had already been there. He suggested that I move on with the Steps.