I walked into my first AA meeting at 16 feeling like a reject. I hated who I was, and I came to AA to save a friendship and to save myself from the person I was becoming. But I wasn’t ready yet. I didn’t think I had a drinking problem because I was unlike all those drinkers I’d heard about: I never hid alcohol all over the house, or had the shakes. I was never a blackout drinker, never lost any jobs or skipped school due to my drinking.