I have been lucky enough to live one day at time for a while now. Every now and then, I reflect back to some of the best things I’ve heard at my AA meetings, things that have served me well. But I’d like to share about one particular meeting in 1991 that totally changed me.
When I was new in AA, only about five weeks, a member whose name I don’t remember shared something that had happened, something that wasn’t fair. I remember silently agreeing with them, thinking, You’re right, that was not fair!
Later some wise man spoke up and said, “I wonder how many DUIs we all deserve!” He hesitated long enough for me to mentally do my math. How many do I deserve? I thought. To be modest, let’s say one every day for 10 years. That’s 3,650 DUIs! Then the man said, “Aren’t you glad life isn’t fair?”
Whoa, that stopped me in my tracks. He followed that with, “I don’t pray for fairness. I pray for mercy.”
That man’s share changed my sobriety that day. I stopped wanting fairness; I now wanted mercy, for myself and everyone else. That day I gained a new way of thinking and a gentler me.
I thank God daily for the great wisdom that has come from my AA meetings over these years. Who could have known that I’d come to see the light in so many ways, when all I wanted to do when I got here was stop my terrible blackouts?