Never More Awake
May 2021 | Our Twelve Steps

Never More Awake

When I began taking others through the Steps, I noticed a feeling wash over me. I began to understand how my own story could benefit another.

“As a result of these Steps” was the hiccup that bored deep. Early on in AA, I was searching for the HP stuff at Third Step meetings and repeating, “I can’t…You can…Help me.” I was doing the first three Steps “dance” as I was struggling to find people’s stories in the rooms I connected with. There weren’t many trans people, especially trans women, in the meetings I went to. I really believed that maybe it meant that these Steps wouldn’t work the same for me.


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