Never More Awake
“As a result of these Steps” was the hiccup that bored deep. Early on in AA, I was searching for the HP stuff at Third Step meetings and repeating, “I can’t…You can…Help me.” I was doing the first three Steps “dance” as I was struggling to find people’s stories in the rooms I connected with. There weren’t many trans people, especially trans women, in the meetings I went to. I really believed that maybe it meant that these Steps wouldn’t work the same for me.