The Act of Seeking

God was not on my radar when I was first arrived at Alcoholics Anonymous. In fact, I was blindsided by the whole concept. That first introduction to AA was through reading Alcoholics Anonymous for a book report I had to write while in treatment. It was very difficult for me, and I almost couldn't finish reading the book. I didn't even want to hold it and I expressed my dislike for it to my wife on many occasions. At the time I was so adamantly against organized religion that even the term “God” was distasteful to me and I wouldn't even say it. Little did I know that religion doesn’t have anything to do with it. I was not able to grasp the idea of my own conception of God.