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Published March 2011.

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A near-fatal fall brought this teen into AA. Now the program is part of her family.

"I thank God all the time for saving me. I have no flashbacks or memory of what happened that night."

Today I truly believe in miracles. I still don’t understand everything that happens, and sometimes I don’t think everything is fair, but I’m coming to realize that’s OK. With over two years clean, one day at a time, I know I can’t change the world. I’ve learned to accept the things I cannot change—and to not give up on the things I can.  

Today, this very moment, I have no desire to drink. It’s a great feeling. I’m not sure when I began to control my thoughts and not react on my anger, but I like it. I like waking up remembering what I did and who I did the night before. Not having to worry about friends calling and filling me in on the embarrassing moments that I somehow forgot. Blackouts were a constant part of my drinking career. I started drinking when I was 14 and loved the feeling from the very start. I agreed to go to my first outpatient program when I was 18 due to a drunken episode that almost cost me my life.  

-- Brittany S.

Calvert County, Maryland

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