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Published January 2012.

Moment in the Mirror

Sweating and shaking in front of the bathroom cabinet, he looked at himself finally surrendered

It seemed like a good idea at the time. Move to Olympia and live with Nancy. After all, we had been "distance dating" for five years—72 miles door-to-door. It wasn't as if we didn't know each other. She was my "puppy love" girlfriend when I was 11 years old for a summer in the small fishing town in which we grew up in Alaska. She was a year younger than me but we became good friends throughout high school. She got married right out of high school and I went off to college.

In 2004, through a mutual friend, I found Nancy in Olympia. She was divorced and her two kids lived in nearby towns. So after some phone calls and emails, we got together.

-- John E.

Seattle, Washington

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