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Holiday Party

Running into a member of the Fellowship helped him through it

I had started a new job, one that required much more contact with business people and the public than I had experienced in several years. This brought back the feelings of insecurity and not being good enough which I had previously dealt with by drinking alcohol. My co-workers in the office I worked in were going to a local bar/restaurant for a holiday luncheon and I was terrified. How was I going to explain that I didn't drink? Even though I had nearly two years of sobriety at that time, it was still important to me in those days to fit in and be one of the gang.

As I clung to the diet cola I ordered at the bar and walked into the large room we had reserved at the restaurant for our group, it seemed as if everyone but me was drinking alcohol. I spotted a familiar face. Dick P., sober maybe a couple of weeks, was seated with his co-workers from another organization. He had the "deer in the headlights" look that I was feeling. Our eyes locked. A wave of relief washed over me, and, as I was later to find out, over him as well. We didn't have an opportunity to speak, but it was going to be OK for both of us. I relaxed and enjoyed the meal.

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