February 2011: On dangerous ground
From the February 2011 Grapevine Magazine
A crush on her sponsor cracks the protective shell around her sexuality
"I came clean and shared my truth, and she couldn’t have been any more supportive."
Growing up, I felt terminally unique. I made great attempts to be better than most at everything I did—school, work, relationships, etc. There always seemed to be a gap in my ability to conform to what society deemed acceptable. I couldn’t stand authority, but was too afraid to rebel. I was afraid of making others angry, so I kept to myself most of the time and became an extreme introvert. I was always trying to be someone or something else, trying to figure out how to be comfortable in my own skin. I felt unacceptable. My drinking played a large part in my search for ease and comfort....
-- M. F.