Burning Desire to Share

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Anonymous
regret

If you are referring to his comment in the interview, I suspect he was being flippant - to an extent. I took it in the context of what I was struggling with at the time, and still struggle with today, which is to not react or over-react to those things that happen around me that I am not happy with, i.e., view it all in the proper context - as "small stuff." Put differently, in Doc Paul's words, live life on life's terms. I am not immune to hyperbole even with a little time under my belt, as I am only a recovering BS'er, but I never BS about how AA has helped me.

Anonymous
re-regret

There is nothing wrong with acceptance unless by accepting I am harming myself in some way. By washing my hands with acceptance I can actually stunt my spiritual growth and corrupt the drive to seek the truth. Sweeping things under the carpet with an acceptance broom might be a temporary necessity but, its not a good strategy for the long haul.
I try and not over simplify my recovery with trite sayings and clichés. I'm not one who can afford to live on the surface in recovery. I will drink again if I don't move past the party-line and walk through the darkness until it leads me to the hidden treasure.

Anonymous
Acceptance was the answer.

Maybe some of the old timers might want to read Acceptance was the answer in the Big book (page 407 in the 4th edition)

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Re: Acceptance was the answer.

"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today."
The why do we still continue to use the entire Serenity Prayer? Why don't we just pray for the serenity to accept everything, rather than just those things we cannot change?
Why not stop after Step One, the admission of our alcoholism?Some might find that enough, but I certainly couldn't. I admitted and accepted my alcoholism months before I did anything about it. The only problem that solved was the necessity to make excuses for my drinking.
I've often wondered why that story was published in the "Grapevine" under one title, the third edition Big Book under another, and the fourth edition Big Book under a third.
In the July, 1995 issue of the Grapevine is an interview with Dr Paul O. In it he says one thing, yet in his Big Book story and every one of his talks he does another. As my Native American friend might say, "White Medicine Man speaks with forked tongue."

Anonymous
RE: Re: Acceptance was the answer.

God gave me a brain. I believe He expects me to use it.
It might be easy to just say acceptance is the answer.
Personally, I have been trying hard to change a lot of
things I can no longer accept. My head was kept in the
sand too long. There are times when I wish I could return to that state of ignorant bliss. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
RE: What's the big deal of other substances being talked about?

I hear what your saying but ho are you tiring to convince them or yourself? Question why can’t NA work for you ? Don’t get religious on me just a question.

Anonymous
re the big deal

N A's website shows that they have over 60,000 meetings weekly. How did every one of those meetings start? Just like AA's I imagine, members who cared enough and worked hard enough to fill a need.

Sounds like you have the resume for it, what's stopping you. I've been a founding member of two AA groups and tonight my wife is at the regular tuesday night women's meeting she helped start.

Anonymous
re what's the big deal

Hi I'm the one who wrote about what's the big deal of other substances being talked about. I wanted to say thanks for the response. I guess I learned really quickly how humbling the answers I got was, as well how very ignorant I was. I want to say I owe an amends to those who I may have harmed in my written opinion, especially old-timers. Thank you very much for putting me in my place. True I am selfish in ways, but open minded I am. And I will take your advise and start a new NA group.

Anonymous
re what's the big deal

Hi What's the Big Deal:

You didn't harm anyone! You gave your opinion. There's nothing wrong with that!
I think it's great that you will be starting an NA group. Some AA members and groups try to enforce a prohibition on talking about drugs other than alcohol in AA meetings. From a physiological perspective, the distinction makes no sense. Alcohol is similar to the other drugs of abuse in the way it affects the brain. There has been seventy years of scientific research on drugs and the brain since the Alcoholics Anonymous movement began in the 1930s.

From a historical and cultural perspective, the distinction makes little sense either. Times have changed since the 1950s when NA was founded. There are few people coming into AA who are addicted to alcohol who did not use other drugs. This is especially true in urban areas of the country. I've never met anyone under 30 in AA in my city (Chicago) who did not use other drugs besides alcohol. Other drugs are, as we say, "part of their story." In the meetings I go to, other drugs are mentioned as a matter of course.

Why don't all these people leave AA and go to Narcotics Anonymous, as the folks on this site seem to be suggesting? I have nothing against NA, but Alcoholics Anonymous is a strong fellowship with millions of members around the world, and it's a wonderful fellowship to recover in. AA is flourishing among young people in my city. It's an exciting time to be in AA. I go to AA meetings at the county jail (I'm going today) where it would be ridiculous not to talk about drugs other than alcohol.

Again, it's terrific that you'll be starting an NA group. Best of luck to you.

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re drugs

If all drugs are the same, next time you get a headache take some exlax and see what happens! ;)

Anonymous
amends

Sounds like those NA's will have a good founder. My thinking ill of someone doesn't necessary harm them unless I follow up by doing something besides think. If all you did was an anonymous post about them, no harm done, move on. Sounds like you're going to busy for a while.
Good Luck.

Anonymous
re what's the big deal?

The big deal is this, when an alcoholic comes to AA to learn about alcoholism and the recovery from alcoholism and hears the group talking about every addiction besides alcoholism he will leave and die.
The idea that most people have more than one addiction may or may not be true. What I do know is that 50% of all workplace fatalities and injuries are due to alcoholism. 750,000 deaths in the united states last year were a direct result of alcohol and 2.5 million deaths around the world a result of alcohol. Google it and see for yourself.
If there are no NA meetings where you live start one. Don't be so selfish to change AA to suit you when there are 200 other groups that deal with problems other than alcohol. Start an NA group where you can talk about your addictions. Just be warned that even in NA they say "clean" and discourage talking about individual addictions for the same reason AA has a singleness of purpose. so newcomers can identify. If newcomers cannot identify they die, it's that simple.

Anonymous
Re-whats the big deal ... may or may not be true

You said, "The idea that most people have more than one addiction may or may not be true." It's true. Look at the founders who died of nicotine related diseases. Perhaps you might think "Smoking never killed anyone except the smoker" This is not true. My mother died of lung cancer from second hand smoke. We most be responsible do discuss the current medical realities of the biochemistry of addiction and not pretend its the 1930's. Addiction is a brain disorder. Many people in recovery switch addictions. People have found legal ways of lighting up the same addictive neural-pathways. Look around the rooms. Members are self-medicating through sugar, carbs, rage, sex, caffeine, nicotine, or doctor prescribed medications. Our group decided to allow talking of other substances to better serve the new person and to wake-up that 70 lb. over-weight old-timer who couldn't stop eating ice-cream. Through discussion and debate at group conscious, we decided to bring current medical knowledge into the picture. Although AA was founded on "Faith" we can't ignore the scientific person behind the curtain if we truly want to help the alcoholic in this century.

Anonymous
nothing new

From Step 4
"Who wants to be gluttonous enough to ruin their health?"

That hit my two pack a day habit every time I heard it. Kept trying different approaches until I found something that worked. Have better wind now at 64 than I did at 40.

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Re-whats the big deal ... may or may not be true

Ah yes, another voice crying out to call AA "Assorted Ailments."
Before Alcoholics Anonymous found me I knew for a fact that whatever I did, everyone else did. I drank to excess, so everyone else drank to excess. I was unfaithful to my spouse, so everyone else was unfaithful to their spouse. I was a liar, cheat and thief, therefore everyone else was a liar cheat and thief.
Somehow the twelve steps taught me that while many people shared the same character defects I did, not everyone else did.
Insisting that AA change to suit me is a perfect example of the selfishness and self centeredness the Big Book talks about. Hiding one's selfish motive behind the curtain of helping all who suffer is simply another alibi to cover up one's selfishness, And those who use others' weaknesses (smoking, overeating,sex, etc.) are doing nothing more than proclaiming themselves better than the rest.

Anonymous
re you don't belong to an AA group

If your group has taken on the multipurpose activity you have described, you must not call your group an AA group. You can continue to hold your meetings and follow your group’s conscience, however if as a group you are dealing with these other issues, you must not call yourself an AA group. Our literature is crystal clear on this matter. Your group is clearly violating tradition 1,3, and 5. For clarification please read the AA pamphlets “the AA group” and “problems other than alcohol”. They can be downloaded at the link below.
http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/p-16_theaagroup.pdf
http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/p-35_ProOtherThanAlcohol.pdf
Alcoholics Anonymous deals only with alcohol and recovery from alcoholism. That is why in my opinion, AA continually grew until 1992. In 1992 AA had 2.4 million members worldwide. 20 years later AA has 2.4 million members worldwide with 2.5 million people dying annually from alcohol worldwide, If we truly want to help alcoholics in this century, we must cleave to our singleness of purpose.
I do not intend to offend anyone, I only wish to share a message vital to the survival of AA since we are responsible when anyone, anywhere reaches out for help, we want the hand of AA to be there and for that we are responsible. We can twist that up to mean multipurpose activity, or we can juxtapose that statement with our tradition of unity, having to at least have an alcohol problem to be a member, and our singleness of purpose- traditions 1, 3 , and 5.
Please read our literature so you can have a truly informed group conscience.

Anonymous
...and NA's World Service Office Agrees

The NA World Services Board of Trustees certainly agrees- having published NAs position on this in their Bulletin #13, found in the ‘Members’ section of the NA World Svcs website. Here’s an excerpt from NA Bulletin 13:
“Both fellowships have a Sixth Tradition for a reason: to keep each one from being diverted from its own primary purpose. Because of the inherent need of a Twelve Step fellowship to focus on one thing and one thing only, so that it can do that one thing supremely well, each Twelve Step fellowship must stand alone, unaffiliated with everything else. It is in our nature to be separate, to feel separate, and use a separate set of recovery terms, because we each have a separate, unique primary purpose. The focus of AA is on the alcoholic, and we ought to respect that fellowship’s perfect right to adhere to its own traditions and protect its focus. If we cannot use language consistent with that, we ought not go to their meetings and undermine that atmosphere. In the same way, we NA members ought to respect our own primary purpose and identify ourselves at NA meetings simply as addicts, and share in a way that keeps our message clear”.

That sure sounds quite clear to me.

Anonymous
I used to feel the same

I used to feel the same way....I also went to na...but the more I had time to think about where it all started , it started with a drink...thats where it started....i now do aa ...not na....so I respect aa when it comes to only speaking of a drink...

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Re: What's the Big Deal ......

First you should listen when the AA preamble is read at meetings. It says says we share our experience, strength and hope so that we may solve our COMMON problem and help others recover from ALCOHOLISM.
Then you should read the long form of Tradition Three on page 563 of the Big Book.
Find a 12&12 and read what it says about the Third Tradition, especially the anecdote which starts at the bottom of page 141. Pay attention to the last sentence, "Never did he trouble anyone with his other difficulty."
The essay on Tradition Five begins with the cautionary statement, "Shoemaker, stick to thy last."
Another thing you should read is the pamphlet, "Problems Other Than Alcohol."
I was told in the beginning, "Identify, don't compare." I've never smoked pot, snorted coke, shot heroin, popped pills or did any of the other popular drugs, so when you talk of doing those things I have no way to identify. You may not believe this, but there are many like me who did nothing but drink. You're telling us that the letters A. A. now stand for Alcadictions anonymous, or maybe Assorted Ailments.
You wrote, "I'm a recovered alcoholic and drug addict and wanted to say that there were some times that some addicts had no where to go because there are no NA meetings near here, and to tell them to leave you mind as well say go die." If you're truly a recovered drug addict why don't you start an NA meeting?

Anonymous
re-whats the big deal no way of identfying

You said, ""Identify, don't compare." I've never smoked pot, snorted coke, shot heroin, popped pills or did any of the other popular drugs, so when you talk of doing those things I have no way to identify." I disagree. So you can't identify with hurting your loved ones, having actions that against everything you believe in, waking up in strange places with strange people, abusing friends, being fired, living in despair, being homeless, living a false life, suicidal thoughts, lying, cheating, stealing, withdrawal, police activities, paranoia, depression, desperation?
These are not alcohol specific characteristics that are characteristics of all addictions. If you can't identify with these you must have the most unique alcoholism on the planet. Consider love and compassion for anyone that suffers

Anonymous
can a person say thier sober if on prescribed meds ?

ive been in and out a.a and n.a , walked into first a.a meeting about 20 years ago , have had some sucess , 2 years ssemed to be max time id last , im 58 now , alcohal ive been able to stop for afew months at a time , but have quite a few medical issues that im treated with pain med , and antidepressentsb , ect , for me staying away from the alcohal is my sober . ive been through 3 rehabs , and have heard different opinions about ppl on presacribed meds , ive even walked away and try staying sober from alcohal on my own , it edoesn t last though , im feel ive run outta time , health is makeing it alot harder to attend a meeting even if i get the desire , guess bottom line is id like to hear another opinion about haveing to feel guilty cause im on pain meds , thanks L.S

Anonymous
the question

I've been clean and sober for over 33 years using the program of recovery suggested by Alcoholics Anonymous. I've skipped meetings for years at a time but I was not in and out of my AA program. That's how powerful it is when done as suggested. I've been prescribed and used antidepressants and painkillers at times. I use doctors that know addiction. I don't need to ask anybody if its OK.

If you zero in on AA's program of recovery, you will have the answers to your questions.

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Re: can a person say thier sober if on prescribed meds ?

Are you taking the medications as prescribed or to get a buzz? If you're not abusing the meds don't pay attention to the amateur doctors who tell you not to take them.
You don't have to tell anyone you're taking them, you know.

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going back out after 14 years

I am floundering, I am going to the meetings and got a new sponsor because I live in a new area. My old sponsor passed away, she was a real witch she was like a drill seargent and I needed that. In my area I have not found a by the big book type of woman who won't put up with my BS. I travel around to meetings on Sunday nights to try different meetings. I am floundering. HOw can a person not stay sober after having a good life with the promises coming true?

This is how people die during relapse. With not a taste of alcohol for 14 years and then dipping and dabbing for a few months I ended up in ICU for 10days. I understand why people go out and never make it back. I do not want to be one of them. I am crying at meetings because it is so hard to come back and start over. It has been 6 months since my last drink, I signed myself into detox because I knew I could not stop. Life is so compicated. It is going to take work, lots of work to gain any peace of mind. Going out has taught me not to trust myself.

My sponsor said we are going to start working the steps. I feel like a fish out of water but I know the reward waiting for me if I keep doing this one day at a time. I want to hurry it up but it is not the way it works. I go through the motions, I stated to pray, I do my meditaiton, I do whatever is suggested. I do not like starting over and that is why people die from this disease. I am going to keep on the path of sobriety but it is goig to be one big fight. It is a holiday and I am going to my meeting tonight in case hardly anyone else shows up and I need to be there for me and in case a new comer needs AA.

Anonymous
Glad you are back. I never

Glad you are back.
I never like to hear "Starting over." There's too much emphasis on marking time. Nothing takes away many of the things you have gained and learned during years of sobriety. Sounds like you were missing a few pieces of the puzzle that need to be discovered and inserted in your program of recovery.

Alcoholism progresses - drinking or dry. I don't think we need to keep increasing our effort to combat it but we do need what those first one hundred men and women who RECOVERED from alcoholism had.

I don't like to hear WORK, WORK, WORK much either. With the right attitude the steps of the program of recovery are a set of wonderful tools that simply need the gift wrap taken off and put to use.

I hear more and more that 7 to 14 meetings a week are best. I've had good luck with four if two of them are at home with Bill so I can see who is blowing smoke at the other two.

Good luck and keep us posted.

Anonymous
When they got it right

Has anyone else noticed that the only time AA got it right was when the Great (your name here) started? Not before when Bill had that three day puke and purge at Towns Hospital or after when it all went down the drain. Myself, I remember the day I started like it was yesterday. I walked through this field of buttercups past the big rock candy mountain, coffee was better than any Stabucks…

Anonymous
RE-When they got it right… as a humble start

Bill and Bob started to write the Big Book in 1938 close to three years after AA started. Let’s just not a lot of recovery experience to bank upon. Do you know anyone with three years of sobriety who has it all together? No and neither did Bill and Bob. In the “A Vision for You” they wrote something like “Our book is meant to be a suggestion only; we admit we know only a little. God will constantly disclose more to you and us” What were they saying? Bill and Bob were humble enough to admit they didn’t know very much and the only thing they could think of at the time was salvation through God. And that would be just about right for that period in history. To me, people who kidnap the Big Book from its “Suggestion” status and place it up on a holy pedestal with angels and saints are doing a disservice to AA. AA members from all walks of life have accumulated 75 years of experience strength and hope beyond the initial three years of information presented in the book. This is no disrespect to our humble founders but, my recovery is largely based on the 75 years of additional wisdom that followed their great start and not the first 3 years. We know today that it is not necessary to follow the same path as the founders and many people have not. Following a different path is not rejecting the founders or rebelling against them. Their experiences are still relevant today but, so are all the other members who have added their experiences to the recovery field the past 75 years. For some in the rooms, God does not have to disclose anything to them. People can obtain sobriety without God. To discredit the 75 years of additional wisdom is to insult all the loyal servants of AA throughout the years and all their loving deeds and acts of kindness when they offered their hands to anyone who had reached for it.

Anonymous
re humble?

From time to time I hear comments of AA having only 3 years of experience when the big book was written. Recently I even read a humble post on the “what’s on your mind” forum from an alcoholic who surpassed Dr.Bob’s sobriety time and was closing in on Bill W’s.
I think it was nothing short of a miracle that the big book was even published, let alone became the basic text of AA.
I would like to see you and 40 of your pigeons put a plan of recovery down on paper, get funding to publish it, then start your own publishing company, sell stock in that company, publish the book, then buy back all the stock, pay back the hospital that loaned you some money to keep the book alive, then sell some +30 million copies to date and about 1 million annually while allowing the book to be 100% free online while offering AA’s experience to hundreds of 12 step groups, free of charge.
Even though Bill was only 3 years sober at the time the big book was written, the spiritual principles in the book have been around a long time. The idea of deflation at depth came from William James in 1902, Carl Jung in the 1930’s, and Dr. Silkworth, a neurologist who had worked with around 40,000 alcoholics. Self-examination, meditation, prayer, confession, restitution, and helping others is as old as any religion. Bill simply laid those spiritual exercises out in the big book in a way that resonates with alcoholics of my type.
I look forward to reading your book. If it works, I will add it to my collection.

Anonymous
re-spiritual principals

You mentioned "the spiritual principles in the book have been around a long time." There's the rub. So what is it about AA that works? It's the human connection. One drunk talking another drunks language. Is it a crime for some members go directly to the originators of such spiritual sources in AA and bypass the big Book? I don't have a problem with it do you? Maturity is a good thing in AA.

Anonymous
re maturity

Hey ur car broke down? Yeah mine to. It's really tough when your car brakes down, I know what you're going through. Good luck, just keep going to meetings and talking about broken down cars.

When you get tired of walking, if you care to, I can show you exactly how to fix your car. I have the tools, garage, and the exact part. I would be more than willing to do it for free because someone once did it for me.

Replacement car mechanics with alcoholism and you have how AA works best in my opinion.

Anonymous
re-humble look forward..naysayers

You said, "I look forward to reading your book." Wow! Did I say I was writing a book or have rejected the Big Book? I don't believe you were following my post exactly. To me, for Bill and Bob to say they knew just a little is a very humbling statement. Is it not? To mention that the Big Book should remain “suggested” well I was quoting them. You have to concede that not everyone in AA reads the Big Book or finds it helpful and that is alright with me as it would have been with the founders. Are we not free to choose our own spiritual paths in AA? People who find comfort in other teachings can still be vibrant and passionate members of the AA Fellowship. Groups can restrict literature and books at the table which I support, but they cannot restrict higher powers of choice or an individual’s spiritual path. I hope you agree with me on that because it is very important and basic AA. The majority of people I know who do not read the Big Book are not against it. They are instead against the few close-minded members who spend the majority of time trying to re-program others to follow the “Correct and Only Way Program” My position as a sponsor has never been to force ideas on anyone. Throughout the years, some people I sponsored embraced the Big Book while others left in on the literature table. AA as a whole is an open-minded organization, however some of its members feel they are more important than AA. I personally do not read the book today. Does this anger you? It shouldn’t. When you get a few decades of recovery perhaps your mind will change. May I ask you a question, “Why do you care if someone gets sober differently then you?” We are all equals in AA with a common illness and a common goal of lending the hand of AA to alcoholics that suffer. Someone might reach out for your hand, while another might reach out for my hand.
Let’s let their HP or no-HP decide which hand to reach for. If you hope its yours where is the humility in that?

Anonymous
when they got it right

Sometimes when people don't share their experience it leaves me wondering. It would be nice to think that those entering AA and benefitting from its rewards would a least give the founder’s methods a try. Someone demonstrating your dislike for promoting the twelve steps must have found a real obstacle. Do you mind sharing what it was?

Anonymous
re when

So, when is your book coming out?

Anonymous
re humble start

Sorry pal, you can write any kind of fiction you want but don’t sign Bill W’s name to it.

“This is why sobriety-freedom from alcohol- through the teaching and practice of the A.A.’s Twelve Steps is the sole purpose of the group. If we don’t stick to this cardinal principal, we shall almost certainly collapse.” Bill Wilson Letter 1966 reprinted p79 “As Bill Sees It”

Bill had all the time in the world to re-tune AA's message and went to heroic efforts to pass AA on to new generations in a form that continues to work today. It appears that those who think enough of AA to do the heavy lifting in service work (not me, by the way) must use AA's program of recovery as written. They continue to review, debate,rehash and keep the original focus the same. Others try to hold court at the office water fountain on tuesday mornings and tell us what the quarterbacks should have done.

Anonymous
Sorry pal, you can write any

Sorry pal, you can write any kind of fiction you want but don’t sign Bill W’s name to it.

“This is why sobriety-freedom from alcohol- through the teaching and practice of the A.A.’s Twelve Steps is the sole purpose of the group. If we don’t stick to this cardinal principal, we shall almost certainly collapse.” Bill Wilson Letter 1966 reprinted p79 “As Bill Sees It”

Anonymous
Re they got it right

What are you saying exactly? Thanks

Anonymous
re when

If your question is about the original post, I have simply observed that members have had a strong tendency to believe that AA was perfect when they got sober. Pretty normal reaction considering what AA did for them. Easy to zero in on the wonderful people and meetings and AH HA's and forget all the oysters that didn't yield pearls.

Although no part of AA, a similar phenomena with treatment centers. I know two medical professionals (among lots of others) that credit some treatment center with some miracle that got them sober over a decade ago. What was this miracle? Same as we all got; detox, education, experienced helpers who can read us alki's like a book. Same as we get at a mission meeting on skid row but it's just human nature to connect the exact time, place and faces with the miracle.

My two cents worth.

Anonymous
Twelve words

One line of How It Works makes it important enough to be read often. “there are those too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders”

Alcoholics Anonymous was barely four years old and had only one hundred members when this was written. Members with these problems were already prevalent enough to be specifically identified in one of the most important parts of our handbook, “Alcoholics Anonymous”.

A warning. Expect to find these people in AA, diagnosed or not, treated or not. They don’t hug and kiss trees or dress like Napoleon or act like some character out of a B movie. They are apt to be intelligent, articulate human beings who may be functioning at a high level in society. I have employed some and counted several among my close friends during my life. For some reason their thought processes or emotions are different (for lack of a professional sounding word). They may perceive a simple concept of the AA program we take for granted much differently. Then there are us “Regular” alcoholics described by a Dr Harry Tebot in “Alcoholics Anonymous Comes of Age” as “a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner integrity.” WOW! There’s a curriculum vitae for a life coach.

I learned early that if I want to recover from alcoholism I need to listen to the experience of people who have recovered. I also learned, and re-learned and have been warned frequently that I need to exercise caution. Just because a member has, or claims, long years of sobriety, can quote from a large storehouse of chapter and verse or is just an over-all good Joe doesn’t mean he or she has a ligament motive or a grasp on the AA program. On the other hand our literature, written, reviewed, and updated as needed doesn’t suffer from our individual character defects. A balance of face-to-face, online and in-print seems to give me the balance I need.
Happy, joyous, and free today

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Twelve Words

That line helps remind me that though I may share a common disease and program of recovery with my AA brothers & sisters, that there may be other conditions we do not share in common. It helps me to be less judgmental and more understanding.

I probably could have been diagnosed with multiple conditions if I sobered up today instead of 28 years ago. Anxiety, depression, OCD, bulimia, ADD...During early sobriety and through the process of working the steps, I was able to name my conditions, especially the depression & anxiety, and slowly work through them. Thankfully, I was able to do so without medication.

The program of AA was effective for me in dealing with problems other than alcohol and I am truly grateful for that. However, I am in no position to judge someone else's condition. All I can do is share my experience honestly and with love.

Anonymous
Grave mental disorders

Page 133 in the Big Book is the thing that finally got me to understand that AA is not the solution for every problem. I suffer from mental disorders that I would consider pretty grave when I'm suffering a black night of the soul or a completely fear driven day.

I do go to a psychologist and a psychiatrist. They both know that I am a sober alcoholic but they exclusively treat my mental disorders, not my alcoholism.

I don't make a secret of my mental disorders in meeting because I know that there are others that may be present that are also suffering, but maybe suffering in silence.

In all of this, what I have found is that the doctors help keep me sane enough to be able to be a member of AA, keep a handle on my emotional swings (mostly depression and anxiety) and let AA do the rest. AA has taugh me how to be a completely different person through the process of ego-deflation, working the steps (getting rid of those dark secrets being a big one for me) and learning to ask others for help instead of trying to do everything on my own.

I would not consider myself damaged or dangerous, just a little broken and trying my best to keep it all together. Isn't that what every alcoholic in AA is trying to do? I just have a few extra issues and am active in seeking extra help to handle those issues.

Anonymous
Re grave mental disorders

I had a lot of grave mental disorders pretty much my whole life including anxiety, depression, and ADHD. However after I did the steps like 4,5,6,7 I lost all anxiety and depression. I don't suffer anymore, which is a blessing. This didn't happen overnight, but its possible. my higher power took it away, and has taken away things that were destroying my life.
I don't say this to mock you, I say this because I know that there is hope. If you want more help, buy the book called, "Hope and Help for Your Nerves," by Dr. Claire Seekes. life does get better, just keep working hard and you will get it.

Anonymous

Anonymous
Grave Mental Disorders

Thank you for sharing. Like you, I too have, extra issues such as you describe. I am slowly finding the path God wants me to take and listening carefully for his will and not my own. I was made to understand that if I believe I can be a vessel of God's love, power and way, my fellows are that as well. I am working on trust and emotional issues so I can better serve and strengthen what is pure and good in every way. I also believe that there is reflection of God in everything and everyone. I just need to act upon his spirit's guidance in my life and trust God's plan It will not happen overnight but I do know it will happen for someone or something that requires God's attention and I am happy to be a part of that process. I wish you well and have hope for you on your spiritual journey.

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Re: Twelve Words

".... he or she has a ligament motive ....."
Ligament??

"ligament - definition of ligament by the Free Online Dictionary ...
Anatomy A sheet or band of tough, fibrous tissue connecting bones or cartilages at a joint or supporting an organ. 2. A unifying or connecting tie or bond."

Anonymous
legitimate then

OK "legitimate" then.

336 words and you found a mistake.

Congratulations for zeroing in on the very heart of the matter.

Anonymous
ADO10416 LIGAMENT

Jim, You may be elderly, but you are quick. My comment
will be that we ought never announce up front that any
member might be incapable of grasping and developing a manner of living which demands rigorous honesty. We who are
here may need to know that, but should we tell that to
the newcomer? I am convinced that HIWs needs to be returned
to Chapter Five where Bill placed it. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
Dear friend Trust me. If you

Dear friend
Trust me. If you have to date, date with AA friends, AA fellowship. The winners. They are the true friends to date. Life will be changed. Involve yourself with AA activities, do service in the group. Serve tea, coffee. Welcome new comer. Wipe out his sweat with your T-shirt. Share your life story with him. Listen to him with compassion. The false dependency will disappear.
Love and hugs

Anonymous
Re dear friend

Seriously, are saying this dating stuff just to hook up with someone? There's a time and place for everything and the rooms are not a place to find a date. I did this once, and the person went out and drank, and I left. The second person drank only a few days after I dated for a few days. so life lesson learned for me. Don't be a dunce like me because it hurts, especially when the person may die.

Anonymous

Anonymous
RE-Dear friend...

You shared, "Trust me. If you have to date, date with AA friends, AA fellowship. The winners. They are the true friends to date." To me, this is awful advice. My suggestion would be to focus on your recovery in AA and to avoid dating any addict period. Because when that cute cuddly person relapses you will loose all your belongings, your computers, your electronics, your credit cards, etc. A person in relapse will do anything to get to their next drink. You've just become nothing but a means to end for someone else. I see it all the time in the rooms. For a few moments of pleasure people in the rooms throw their whole lives away. Once you get healthy enough to date, look for someone outside the rooms. I came in to AA to learn how to not pick up the first drink; not to learn how to pick up women. The rooms are full of sick damaged people with deep dark secrets and traumas pretending to be sober. The rooms are our medicine not our playgrounds with feel good toys. Real recovery is outside the rooms.

Anonymous
damaged people

you wrote "The rooms are full of sick damaged people with deep dark secrets and traumas pretending to be sober."

Actually, we are sober. Now we are trying to get mentally, emotionally, and spiritually healthy. Why were you expecting something else?

Anonymous
re-damaged ...we are sober

You said, "Actually, we are sober. Now we are trying to get mentally, emotionally, and spiritually healthy. Why were you expecting something else?" Well, that's my point. People searching for salvation from their misery is not the healthiest place to look for dates. I come to AA for my alcoholism and not my social outlet. If you find comfort with the field of damaged people great. I rather spend time outside the rooms with the company of healthy people. To me, many people in the rooms have a narcissistic element to their recovery. I've met the most selfish-self-centered people in the rooms that think the world should stop and give them a medal because they quite drinking. People should spend the time in the rooms putting their hands out to the newcomer instead of chasing dates and making plans to go bowling. The rooms are big enough for you and me. I don't have to agree with your opinions and you are free to delete mine anytime you like. Live and Let Live

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