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Anonymous
RE: topics for a new comer

I would suggest sharing about what our lives were like
while we were still drinking, how we felt in those last
few days, weeks, months, or years. Maybe about how wonderful
it was when we first found alcohol. Then share about finding
a solution here in Alcoholics Anonymous. That is the great
hope that we wish for everyone. Note: GO EASY ON THE GOD
STUFF. We learned that lesson long ago. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
Uncharted Territory

Hi all,
I am heading into uncharted territory. When my late sponsor passed she explained that the reason old sponsors need old sponsees is because someday you will be older than everyone else, but, that if I have been a good sponsor I will have old sponsees who know enough about me and are confident enough in their sobriety that we can become what Bill and Bob and the rest of the 1st group of 10 or so apparently became.
Fortunately or unfortunately I got sober at 26 and I am outliving all my old sponsees. The last one I have is 65 years old with 27 years and has entered hospice.
My next sponsee has a month under 10 years and still has me on a pedestal but she is older than I am and has many health problems. My experience was that I didn't let my sponsor completely off the pedestal until I had about 20 years so I don't think she will let me off the pedestal before she passes.
I think HP is giving me a solution, but I know that even after all these years I can still get garbled information without someone else to help me see the truth.
The solution appears to be a sudden acquisition of several retreads. People that have had as much as 8 years and went out and/or have been in and out for 17-18 years and as we are working up 4th Steps and doing 5th Steps I am having to stay in the basics and getting to hear all the things NOT to do to stay sober.
If there are others out there in similar straits or have either been successful or even failed to stay sober and sane thru intensive work with people such as HP has given me, I would be interested in your experience.

Anonymous
RE: Uncharted Territory

Does anyone know when the label "sponsee" first appeared?
I am not sure if sponsee is even a word. Some of the first
prospects were called "pigeons" or prospects. New members
were sometimes hard to pin down and sometimes flew away.
Today's AA "sponsor" does not appear to fit any of
the definitions of sponsor. I personally feel that today's
concept of sponsor/sponsee ought to be deleted, and soon.
Then maybe the "real" sponsor will reappear. ANONYMOUS

frankie
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definition

Does anyone know what "the road gets narrower" mean?

Anonymous
`The road gets narrower``

Integrity grows as we stay sober and work the steps. My honesty grows and I can no longer indulge myself in behaviours that seemed acceptable in earlier sobriety. Just my thoughts.

Anonymous
I was reading through the AA

I was reading through the AA conference approved pamphlet "Questions and Answers on Sponsorship." A PDF of the pamphlet is provided online courtesy of AAWS and can be found here.

http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/p-15_Q&AonSpon.pdf

I didn't see much to object to in the way sponsorship is described in the pamphlet. Perhaps I've overlooked something in the pamphlet. Perhaps there are sponsors who've never read the pamphlet and don't know what the AA conference recommends as sponsorship practices.

Anonymous
I have read the pamphlet many

I have read the pamphlet many times and find it very helpful. I am in a position where I have never really had a sponsor and am now really wanting and am finally willing to get one. However I am 26 years sober and can't seem to find a female with more sobriety than me that I can relate to. I have women friends but no one that really jumps out as a sponsor. There are several older men that I could see having as a sponsor but people frown on that- I keep going back to the pamphlet and waiting to meet the right female.

Anonymous
nostalgia

You're right, I think we should look back to 2 BCE when a guy could get a real sponsor.

jefft1962
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The Pedestal

Great topic. Here is my experience. I had placed a few men on a pedestal, including my sponsor, in early recovery. Since one of the reasons that I came to AA was to develop some meaningful friendships, I mustered up the courage to call these men. But with many of them it was a one way relationship; they never called me back. I soon had a resentment list and talked to my sponsor about it. He helped me to realize that I was putting them on a pedestal.

I also developed a resentment for my sponsor. But he knew me better than myself, so as soon as I stopped resisting and started listening, I was able to have a spiritual awakening; others had been where I was and had a better understanding than I did. I love them for the patience and tolerance that they had with me. I am closer than I have ever been to knowing who I am and for the first time feel comfortable in my own skin!

Anonymous
re uncharted

I listened to a 5th step last Saturday from a new sponsee who has been in treatment 4 times and in/out of AA for 17 years. He said nobody had ever showed him how to work the steps in the big book. On Friday, I was asked to take some inmates at our county jail through the steps and I did. I have been active and sober in AA for a couple decades (I know it’s ego, but still, it’s fun to say decades), Like you said, I have seen over and over what not to do. Every Thursday night, we take a meeting into our local detox. I have yet to meet anyone at the detox who hasn’t already been to AA. Someone keeps telling them to not drink and go to meetings instead of work the steps and they keep drinking and thinking they have worked the AA program when all they really did was attend a few meetings. All my AA heroes were working with alcoholics like you described in sober year 40,50, and one 60 years sober. I know that works. I have met drunks in detox who had been sober 5,15,18,28, and one 30 plus who had stopped working with others.
Keep working with others and showing them how to do likewise with still others.

lunchbunch
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uncharted

The "just don't drink" advice I hear at some meetings always bugs me a bit. If I could just "not drink" I wouldn't be in AA. I tried that approach every day before AA and alway ended up drinking.

I needed a "spiritual awakening/Higher Power" that I got through working the steps of AA to overcome the insanity (mental obsession) of the first drink. Even after I came to AA, read the book and went to meetings, the insanity came back on me. It was removed when I got a sponsor and worked the steps with him.

Anonymous
RE: uncharted

If alcohol is causing problems, stay away from it. This
advice, "just don't drink", is the advice from friends,
employer, and probably a spouse. This is quite different
from advice given in A.A. meetings. The receiver of the
message is already at a meeting.
If I could have stopped drinking on my own, I would have had no need for A.A. I tried for two or three years before
I was introduced to A.A. I tried everything I knew, to no
avail. The need/desire to drink would become overwhelming,
and I would drink regardless of the price I knew I would
pay.
I am grateful that your insanity/mental obsession
was lifted when you got a sponsor and worked the steps with him. That is what worked for you.
My compulsion/obsession to drink was lifted when I
asked God to help me. Admittedly, I was desperate, as only
the drowning can be. He helped me, as He came to Bill
in his hospital bed in mid Dec. 1934. I saw no white light
and did not feel any wind of spirit flowing. But I felt
the Presence of God or a Higher Power if you like. I was
alone in the front seat of my car.
Someone brought Bill a copy of "Varieties of Religious
Experiences" by William James. Each alcoholic ought to
be allowed to have his own personal experience. It does not have to be the same as mine, or yours. That would be
closing the door on multitudes of sufferers. Maybe "don't
drink" would be better advice than "just don't drink".
In AA I learned how to stay from the first drink. I need
to apply what I learn. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
RE: re uncharted

"In treatment four times and in/out AA for 17 years."
Chalk up another failure for AA. These failures continue
to haunt me. Something is missing. The main ingredient
of the whole AA fellowship/program, humility, has been
pushed aside. The Big Book is so simply written that
many alcoholics have gotten sober just reading/using it.
We certainly do not need some Big Shot AA leader to tell
us what it means. If further explanation is necessary,
we have the 12 & 12 to turn to. It is the responsibility
of the AA GROUP to carry the message or to teach the 12
steps. An AA group offers many options for the newcomer.
You only offer one, your own opinion.
I believe that any alcoholic entering the door of our
AA rooms ought to find permanent recovery. Rarely have we
seen a person fail who has followed our PATH. Our pioneers
changed the word "directions" to PATH, just prior to
publication. It is obvious that you are still offering
directions. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
RE; re uncharted

I have an AA friend who has a low paying job in alcoholism
and drug addiction. He works with skid-row drunks. He tells
me that without exception every one of his clients has been
to AA meetings. I believe that telling them they have to
work those steps has been the problem. Along with all the
other requirements: Get a sponsor, 90 in 90, and holding
hands and praying with us. Bill W. warned us about cramming
the steps down anyone's throat. See The Language of the
Heart (LOTH) middle of page 8. For example,... Bill writes
that the individual AA is under NO human coercion. and is
at almost perfect personal liberty. We close the door in the face
of those who need us most. We push them away by the
demands/requirements we make of them. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
AA’s message is quite simple.

AA’s message is quite simple. If these alcoholic men and women have been to AA they have received AA’s message, layed at their feet if you wish. They have chosen not to use AA’s program of recovery yet. They have every right to do that just as I had the right to take every drink that I did. Hopefully they will choose to embrace our solution soon. If not, perhaps they will find a different path that works for them.

Most of us that have been around for any length of time have packed up our resentments, found a coffee pot and started a new meting more to our liking. If you think you know some drunks that just need the message packaged to your specifications, nothing is stopping you.

Anonymous
RE: AA's message is quite simple.

AA's message IS quite simple. Don't pick up that first
drink. Join us in AA to learn how to do that.
It is the passing the message on to other alcoholics
which is not so simple. This passing of the message on to
others is quite complicated. It took Doctor Silkworth
20 years to figure it out. I have met very few alcoholics
in AA who understand it. Less than five of the messages
on this entire forum indicate that the technique is understood. I am grateful for those few.
But the light will come on for many others soon. I
believe if our fellowship can develop an understanding
of why the 24 hour is not proper AA material we can also
understand why the Reading of "How It Works" from the
podium is so harmful to AA as a whole. These practices
can and must be reversed. ANONYMOUS

oledad1954
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AA message quite simple, reading of how it works

I have recently seemed to keep seeing and hearing that reading How it Works from the podium is harmful to AA as a whole. Could someone explain why to me other than it is time consuming and people do not pay attention to the reading of it ? Please, I am sincere in this question.

Anonymous
the message

How to carry AA’s message is no big secret. It is spelled out in the chapter Working With Others in the Big Book. The character defect that my Higher Power hasn’t removed yet still team up to point me in the direction of doing things my way so I read that chapter often to remind me of the right way instead of mine. The only thing from my personal experience that I would add is that many alcoholics in need of AA’s message are already sitting in meetings. Our Public Relations, Cooperation with the Professional Community, the courts, VA and others get them to us so we don’t look like the men beside the bed picture hanging in many AA rooms much any more. Read and follow label directions.

Anonymous
re 20 years?

From what I have read, Dr. Silkworth had only been primarily working with alcoholics at towns hospital in New York, maybe 3 of 4 years when he treated Bill W. He worked with alcoholics at towns hospital approximately 19 years, when he died in 1951. I haven't read anything about Silkworh taking 20 years.

This is what I found at http://silkworth.net/silkworth/silkworth_bio.html
"Pass It On," (p. 101) reports Silkworth became a specialist in neurology, a domain that sometimes overlaps psychiatry, and entered private practice in the 1920's. It says Silkworth invested his savings in a stock subscription for a new, private hospital. "Pass It On" says Silkworth's investment came with the promise of a staff position when the hospital was built. But, the report says Silkworth lost everything in the stock market collapse of 1929. And,"Pass It On" quotes Bill Wilson as saying that Silkworth, in desperation, went to Towns in 1930 for compensation of about forty dollars a week, plus board.
I also have heard an old tape of Sister Ignatia and Ed Towns, Charlie Towns son. Ed talked about his dad running into Dr. Silkworth and offering him a job at towns hospital. This was sometime after Silworth had lost his position and lifes savings in 1929.

Anonymous
Giving it away

It has been very interesting to me when I hit 30 and my last older than me sponsor passed,, because all of a sudden, right around my birthday every year I would be traveling and stop into a meeting in some little one gas station town, introduce myself and give my sobriety date and after the meeting someone would come up an tell me that they once had whatever years I was getting ready to have and tell me that they had gone back out.

The 30 year one was clear about it that his downfall started at about year 25 when he stopped trying to sponsor people because they were all "too young and they were drug addicts". He didn't think he had anything to give them because he couldn't relate to the drug usage. So he had kept going to meetings, stopped sharing and started spending a lot of time fishing so he could meditate. Then one day, right next to his favorite bait was his favorite vodka. He went fishing without any bait but with a bottle and got his first ever DUI and night in jail on the way home.
When he talked to me he had 12 years again and while he still couldn't relate to the drug stories, he was spending a lot of time teaching the druggies how to meditate and said that his life was better than it had ever been.

The story at 33 years was a fellow that had stopped sponsoring because he had gotten a bunch of degrees in counseling and treatment and was the head of a treatment center. He now has 4 years again, has several pigeons and given up counseling.

The 36 year one was a lady that retired and hit the road to be a full time traveling grandma. Somewhere in the wine country of California a grand daughter left a box of wine in the camper and before that lady got back to AA she had lost the camper and spent a year living on the street.

My local AA Convention is coming up (Coastal Bend Jamboree) and they do an Old Timers (30+) Meeting. There will likely be 1000+ attendees and less than 40 30+ oldsters. I plan to try an talk to everyone over 35 years.

Anonymous
RE: re uncharted

Don't drink. Go to meetings. How can an alcoholic fail
if he/she doesn't drink and goes to AA meetings?
Don't drink alcohol. Go to AA meetings. Do whatever
you need to do to accomplish this. Try to help others
as they struggle. Listen when they share. Listen, Listen,
Listen. Learn how others stay sober. Try some of the
methods used by others.
I believe that most patients in detox and inmates in
prison have been to AA meetings. We have failed them
and pushed them further down by pushing the steps on
them and telling them to Find God and Find Him Now!
Bill W. explains this in an article to the AAGrapevine
in the 1945 issue. On page 4 in the book The Language of the Heart, Bill talks about personal glorification,
overweening pride, consuming ambition, exhibitionism ,
intolerant smugness, money or power madness, refusal to
admit mistakes and learn from them, self-satisfaction,
lazy complacency- these and many more are the garden variety of ills which so often beset movements as well
as individuals.
You and your early timer heroes are sober. You've
got yours. How successful have you been at helping
other alcoholics to recover? The rehabs and prisons
are full of failures. If your method is so successful,
why are they in detox, after 5,15,18,28 or 30 years
sober. ANONYMOUS

clu1992
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re 5,15,18,28,or 30

from what I gather the relapsers where not drinking and going to meetings. the 18 year relapse was active for about 16 years, then stopped working "her" program and was soon drunk. I have yet to meet anyone in the jail or detox that had been to AA, worked the steps as directed in the big book as a daily program. I have met many that thought the AA program was don't drink and go to meetings(where would they get that idea?). I think the don't drink and go to meetings method works for the cetain type of hard drinker in the big book page 20.
what I have found for myself is a real alcoholic at times has no mental defense against the first drink. my last drink was in 1992, 2 hours removed from my home group meeting. I had been to meetings daily for weeks. I felt like a million bucks. no problems, no arguments, nothing but feeling good. someone passed a drink my way and I drank it like water. 9 months of not drinking and going to meetings didn't work. I experienced what the big book describes at the bottom of page 43.
If you can simply not drink and go to meetings, you still have a mental defense, therefore you may only be a certain type of hard drinker. alcoholics have a mental obsession, physical allergy, and spiritual malady. alcoholics have a subtle insanity that precedes the first drink.
Don't get me wrong, I am glad that the hard drinkers are staying sober in AA. Please keep in mind us real alcoholics will eventually drink if we don't drink and go to meetings.

Anonymous
RE: re 5, 15 etc

I do not understand how any alcoholic (or any drinker)
could get drunk if they don't drink and go to meetings.
Do both: "DON'T DRINK ALCOHOL AND ATTEND MEETINGS" and
sobriety is guaranteed. Half measures avail us nothing.
I guess we see it differently. When we come to AA, we
stop using alcohol. We attend meetings to learn how
to stay stopped. But in today's meeting we seem to learn
very little, not because of a lack of sponsors, teachers,
or advisors.
Normally, to teach someone something we tell them how
to do it. In AA we don't teach that way. (in reality
we do, but the message doesn't get passed on). In AA we
have a unique technique of passing the recovery message
from one alcoholic to another. In the "Three Talks"
pamphlet Bill calls it a gadget. What we have lost
is humility. Spiritual Pride and arrogance rule AA
today. We place too many conditions on sobriety. If
you do this, or if you do that, you can have what I
have.
Why don't we use that sledge hammer tool that Dr.
Silkworth discovered, and offered to Bill, and left
for us. It worked better than anything he had ever found,
and will work for us today "If we work it". This
approach to helping alcoholics recover has little to do with the twelve steps. It centers on gratitude and
humility, not cramming the steps down their throats.
ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
re don't drink

If you can't understand the subtle insanity of the first drink, obviously you are a different type of alcoholic than the real alcoholic described in the book “Alcoholics Anonymous” the real alcoholic will be absolutely unable to stop drinking on their own power. That’s why there is no need for any authority over an alcoholic. If the real alcoholic fails to work the steps and grow spiritual through helping others, he is sure to drink. The problem in AA today, is the fellowship is full of nonalcoholic hard drinkers who can quit on their own power and continue to tell real alcoholics that the steps that lead to a spiritual experience are unnecessary. These hard drinkers have no need for the steps and traditions that keep the real alcoholics alive and happy.

Anonymous
Dangerous Labeling Game

I have been in the program for three years now seeing success from people who don't work the whole program and seeing failure from people who do work the whole program. So I am not going to even comment on that.

What I will comment on is this throwing around of labels like "real alcoholic" vs. "only a hard drinker". All it takes is the wrong AA member to read this comment and think oh, maybe I am not an alcoholic after all, maybe I am just a hard drinker as this experienced AA person is speaking of. You gave them the perfect out. And guess what comes next.

Everyone is different and manages their own way with the help of the literature and other AA's. One of the biggest dangers that I encounter in meeting are the big egos that want everyone to do it their own way. Sure it's better if you go to meetings and work the steps. But for some people it takes time to get there.

My best advice... Stay Sober Today.

Anonymous
dangerous labels?

the book "alcoholics anonymous" uses the term "real alcoholic" 9 times in the first 164 pages. that's 5% of the first 164. I can't expect you to know what you don't know. If you read big book pages 21,23,30 (it' there twice, 31,34, 35, 92, and 109. please read those pages and consider why would the authors use a label like "real alcoholic"?

Anonymous
Three Talks to American Medical Societies

Bill is speaking to the society. Bill makes this statement.
You may ask "how does AA work. Bill says that even he,
the co-founder of AA cannot fully answer this question.
He says that we can only tell you what we do and what
seems to happen to us.
If Bill were alive today, he could simply order a
copy of How It Works from GSO. Are we so prideful and
arrogant to state and believe that we can fully explain
how AA works. It works by faith not by our own works. ANONYMOUS

clu1992
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re anonymous

I'll be thinking of not drinking and going to meetings this Saturday while I’m at my friends funeral. He usually made it about 6 weeks between drinks by going to meetings. The mental obsession with alcohol returned and he would drink.
By definition, an alcoholic is someone who has lost the ability to control their drinking. If you can control your drinking, I would venture to say you may not be an alcoholic. If you are a hard drinker I would expect you to be able to not drink and go to meetings.
I think we are helping many hard drinkers to get sober by not drinking and going to meetings. If a real alcoholic takes that advice, we most certainly will kill him.
I agree we don’t shove the steps down anyone’s throat. We didn’t with my deceased friend. He truly believed if he just kept coming back, it would work, but it didn’t for him because he didn’t do the work.
For every person that suggested he get a sponsor, homegroup, and work the steps, there were 10 hard drinkers saying “keep coming back, it works”. Now he’s dead.

Anonymous
Humnn.. How we "fail" the newcomers..

While I agree that immediately telling the new comers that they have to get "GOD", especially a specific conception of "GOD", is failing them, I think not telling them to do the Steps is an even bigger failure.

Once heard a story about the diety named Satan consoling one of his minions who was fearful that the Steps would save too many people from living in hell. Satan told his minion not to worry. That he had already taken action to keep the Steps from working by convincing many people at AA meetings to just tell the new people, "Don't drink and go to meetings."

The guy in my year 30 year story never stopped going to meetings. He never stopped praying. He never stopped meditating. He just stopped working with others and the Big Book is clear that working with others means doing the Steps. That to keep what we have, we must try to give it away.

These are the instructions I was given about one week (28 or 29 Sep 1975)
into my recovery. They were given to me by a Retired Marine Gunny Sargent that was missing a leg.

"Read the first 164 pages of this book. Whump!! (as
his hand slapped the Big Book)

Don't try to do anything except read it!! Whump!!

When you get to the end if you are convinced that you
are an alcoholic, then go back to the start of Chap 5
and do exactly what the book says. Whump!!

The book will tell you when to go fast, and when to go
slow.. Whump!!

It will tell you when to wait, why to wait, how long to wait and what to do while you wait. WHUMP!!

It will tell you when to ask for help and who to ask
for help and why you need help. Whump!!

When you get to Step 12 if you still think you want to
drink,, it means you haven't had a spiritual awakening
yet and that means to haven't been honest
enough yet. Whump!!

So,, go back to the start of Chap 5 and do it all
again and no matter what happens,, DON'T F**K**G
DRINK.. WHUMP!!!

If you have trouble deciding if you are an alcoholic
or finding a Higher Power,, then start reading the
stories.

Any time you are reading this book you must look for
all the ways you think you are exactly the same OR
EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE!! WHUMP!!

This book says alcoholics are are "enthusiasts",,
that means they do things to extremes and if you
think you are exactly the opposite from the people in
this book then you are still an extremist and
still might be an alcoholic."
--------------------------------
Notice there is no mention of finding "GOD". No mention of meetings. (Maybe because he knew I was getting ready to climb on a Navy ship and go to sea for 9-10 months and there wouldn't be any meetings.) His instructions were to do the Steps.

Anonymous
RE; Humnn

Sounds like a true Big Book Whumper. I am grateful my
introduction to AA was not what you describe. I was not
told to do anything. Those early timers shared their
own experience, strength and hope. I could see what
they had and I wanted it. I didn't drink and went
to AA meetings. Sober over four decades now. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
Read the book!

Everything the Gunney Sargent told me is in the book.

The book was written for the express purpose of spreading the AA message without the need for meetings or to people where there ARE no meetings.

There were no meetings on the U.S. Navy man-of-war I spent my 1st 9+ months of sobriety on. 9+ months and 7 foreign seaports in the Mediterranean that have been getting sailors drunk for over 3000 years.

8 of the first 14 years of my sobriety were spent underway on U.S. Navy ships where there were no meetings as those ships regularly called on seaports that have been getting sailors drunk since the founding of those sea ports.

No meetings.. Just reading the book and following the directions in the book to do the Steps.

Not sitting in meetings crying about how bad life is without alcohol while people that haven't done the Steps told me to just "not drink and go to meetings".

Just reading the book and doing the Steps to understand how I was the cause of all the bad in my life.

Not sitting in meetings picking out the next newcomer female I was going to use to change how I feel since I can't drink to change how I feel.

Just reading the book and doing the steps to understand why I don't like how I feel and find a way to feel different without hurting other people. Especially women.

The book is clear about it that "drinking was but a symptom of the problem." Therefore, not drinking and going to meetings isn't going to solve the problem. Just going to leave me with a problem and no solution.

Reading the book and doing the Steps, which means I need the help of another person, is the solution to the problems.

Anonymous
re don't drink

I listened and listened and listened and heard
The steps, the steps, the steps.
I stepped.

When we start accepting that Alcoholism is a disease with a prominent symptom called denial then we see why "just go to meetings, don't drink and give away something you don't have, doesn't work.

Tell a chronic depressive to just cheer up or a schizophrenic to ignore the voices, the guy with lung cancer not to cough.

You don't seem to know much about alcoholism. Maybe you need to listen, listen, listen for a while

Anonymous
Step 4

I'm not really sure why I am so not comfy with this step. Revealing your darkest secrets or your twisted things you have done, did it at rehab with a consuler, but to a stranger, it's a trust thing I guess!

Anonymous
re Step 4

“Step Four. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”
Have I had thoughts, feelings and behavior that were in conflict with what I believe to be right? Of course I have (and still do). That’s what I needed to write an inventory of. Patterns and specifics. That’s what I did. Was I comfy with doing it, no. ##@!! NO! Nobody in their right mind would. So why did I do it? Because a book called Alcoholics Anonymous tells me that “We, of Alcoholics Anonymous are more than one hundred men and women who have recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. To show other alcoholics precisely how we have recovered is the main purpose of this book.”
“Recovered”.
Not “got relief from”
Not “kept in remission”
Recovered.

You are likely to run across lots of people saying that they are in AA that are willing to settle for a fraction of the outcome spelled out starting on p 83 and a really uncertain future. Like those first one hundred, I’m not one of them.

The example of an inventory of resentments in the Big Book comes up short for many of us. That’s why I think the 12 and 12 was written. I need the information from both.

Your projection of discomfort in doing Step 5 is not unusual but unnecessary. Each step changes who I am. I wasn’t the same man walking into a chaplin’s office with my fourth step in my hand as I was with a new pen and blank sheet of paper a few days before. Welcome and may you find the best Alcoholics Anonymous has to offer.

lunchbunch
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Step 4

Here are some tips I learned in AA.

Work step 4 (writing inventory) as if you will never work step 5 (sharing inventory). Because maybe you won't. My sponsor gave me this tip (works for step 8 as well) and it freed me up to be much more honest.

Step 4 involves taking a "searching and fearless moral inventory". Primarily, you investigate what you are resentful at and afraid of. These are the bugaboos that ruled my life - even before I'd ever taken a drink. Step 4 puts the key into the door of freedom.

As for dark and twisted things...when I was new to AA, I marveled at how guys in my home group talked and laughed and kidded each other about the sick and twisted things they had done. Now I understand. Thanks to the steps, those things have no power over me any more. I am now tempted to embellish stories I used to hide.

My sponsor referred me to a recovering AA priest for my 5th step. He was a real pro and did not want to hear about every girl I'd ever picked up in a bar or every sick and twisted thing I'd done. After a couple of tales he'd say he understood and would help me put a name on my behavior...hedonism, selfishness, greed, fear....whatever. He helped me identify the nature of my wrongs and my defects of character.

At one point he jumped in and asked me to tell him what I didn't want to tell him. This caught me by surprise so I just blurted out details of an eating disorder I was deeply ashamed of. He looked me in the eye and said to not do that anymore. Miraculously, I never have. It was part of the dark, sick and twisted web from which AA helped free me.

Over the years, I have been able to share that part of my story with others. People sometimes come up to me after a meeting with tears in their eyes saying, "I did that too".

Freedom. What a gift.

Anonymous
Steps 4 & 5

If you really want to and feel like you need to share your
darkest secrets or twisted things with another human being,
find someone who is sworn to secrecy such as a counselor or
a priest. If you did the 4&5 with a counselor, why do you
feel you need to do them again? If they did not help the
first time, it may not help to repeat them. Please do
not do this because someone is telling you to do so. They
helped me immensely in the past, but they are not for
everyone. Revealing your darkest secrets to the wrong
person can cause great harm. Be careful who you choose, if you decide to do them again. I recently shared
my moral inventory with a paid counselor. It was not
worth the effort or the co-payment. ANONYMOUS

Anonymous
re 4 & 5

"I recently shared my moral inventory with a paid counselor. It was not worth the effort or the co-payment. ANONYMOUS"

I didn't get instant relief from steps four and five either. Why should I, they simply reveal the problems. The remaining steps solve them.

Anonymous
re 4 and 5

read big book page 75, there are 7 things you should feel if you did step 5 correctlly. If you don't feel those results, you did it wrong.

Anonymous
RE: re 4 and 5.

Those 7 or 8 things described on page 75 in the Big Book
are very promising. I experienced all of them the day I
completed a fifth step with an elder in the fellowship,
I especially identify with the drink problem disappearing.
I felt that I could stay sober, and I have done so. I was
sober about five years when I completed the fifth step,
and have remained sober another 39 years. I wish that
every A.A. member could experience what I experienced.
I am sure that many do. BUT I would never tell an AA
member that if this was not their experience, that they
did it wrong.
The steps are suggestions, and ought to be offered to
all in a suggestive manner. We can try them if we chose.
They worked for me. They may work for others. It is possible that they may not.
I believe there are A.A. members who believe that
any member can have the desire to drink removed by
sitting down with pencil and paper and working the
twelve steps, If it were only that simple. ANONYMOUS

clu1992
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re suggest

it sure sounds to me like your telling someone their doing it wrong by insisting the steps are offered in a suggestive manner. putting the pencil to paper is 1/12 of what it takes for most real alcoholics to have their desire to drink removed. obviously you are not my type of alcoholic since you made it 5 years without a 5th step. my big book says on page 72 that most newcomers who didn't do step 5 invariably got drunk. most, invariably to me means almost everyone.
I'm greatful I wasn't killed by an oldtimer that didn't hide the fact that if I didn't do the steps, i would more than likely die of alcoholism. I have to remember I am an alcoholic, not a problem drinker. problem drinkers tell alcoholics they can just "quit" like they did. alcoholics need the steps or they invariably drink again and to drink is to die for this alcoholic.
They told me if I jumped out of an airplane, that they suggest I pull the rip cord. it's up to me to pull it or not.

Anonymous
re: step 4

Actually, step 4 does not include sharing our darkest secrets, but rather just figuring out what they are. As there is no timetable for doing the steps, you can of course wait to do step 5 until you have found someone with whom you are comfortable being totally honest. Or perhaps you will feel more comfortable doing step 5 with a priest or minister. No, I wouldn't (and didn't) do step 5 with a stranger - I waited until a year or so into sobriety until I felt comfortable doing the step and had found someone whom I knew I could trust not to divulge what I had divulged to him (unless I okayed it). Others I know waited even longer, though we all agree in retrospect that our "deep dark secrets" were in reality stupid little things our minds had grown into monsters.

jefft1962
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Phone Calls

Can you all share how calling other alcoholics on a regular basis helps you stay sober? Does it help you in other ways too? How can you encourage others to make these phone calls?

My sponsor told me to call two alcoholics each day and it was like a death sentence for me. It turned out to be a death sentence for my obsession to drink. It was one of the hardest things for me to do. And it seems to be the hardest thing to get others to do.

Making phone calls helped me to feel comfortable in my own skin. I always considered myself an introvert and a loner. I found out that this was just a rationalization for the life I had accepted as "the best I could do." Through others, I have found out who I am; I have found my identity. And that has led me closer to the path that my Higher Power wants me to travel; I am closer than ever to accepting His will and not mine. So, through others I have strenghened my relationship with my HP.

By calling others when I am doing good, it becomes habit for me to pick up the phone instead of the bottle when I am experiencing difficulty. I have lost my fear of being sober; I don't have to do it alone.

I wish I could point to some part of the Big Book or the Twelve and Twelve that definitively suggests calling other alcoholics on a daily basis. To me, A.A. started when one alcoholic called another alcoholic for help. For me, I practice the second step every time I pick up the phone; others are a collective embodiment of my Higher Power, and I believe that they can and do help me to stay sober and attain spiritual fitness. Many other correlations can be made I'm sure, so I'd like to leave the rest for you all to comment about. Thank you all so much for helping to keep me sober and sane!

Anonymous
RE : phone calls

"My sponsor told me to call two alcoholics each day". No
AA member ought to be telling another member what to do.
We do not give directions. We only leave a path they
can follow if they choose to do so. We do not even tell
them that they have to choose. We simply lay the tools
at their feet. We do not tell them they have to pick them up. Personally I came to believe, when I asked my Higher
Power for help, not when I picked up a phone. Collective
embodiment is offered by the AA group, not from one
individual on the phone. ANONYMOUS

jefft1962
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Calling others

Wow...did I hit a nerve? Nobody told me to do anything, so chill. I have done what has been suggested by those that have gone before me, and it has worked when nothing else has; this has been a spiritual awakening for me.

I use the AA group as my higher power. For me GOD = Group Of Drunks. I tap into that collective embodiment when I call an AA member.

I have a bad habit of trying to figure out why this works for me. So I will keep it simple and say that this has helped me to stay sober and spiritually fit.

Anonymous
RE: Phone Calls

I am not a "phone person". Never have been and never will
be. While I was working, the phone was a big part of my job. I was always "on call" and hated it.
Ebby brought the message of recovery to Bill in person.
Bill spoke face to face with Doctor Bob.
Two of your paragraphs "Making phone calls and "By calling
others" are what I believe is called suggestive.
But your sentence "And it seems to be the hardest thing to get others to do", is revealing. In AA we do not tell
others what to do. We only share our own "Experience, Strength, and Hope. (what worked for us).
To tell anyone in AA to call two AA friends every day
could indeed be a death sentence, period. ANONYMOUS

jefft1962
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Phone Calls clarification

Where did the "call two alcoholics a day" advice come from. And this is in addition to meetings, sponsor, step work, etc...

Anonymous
re Phone

Where did advice come from?

We share our experience, strength and hope and advice?

Anonymous
contact w others

Bill's Story sets out the formula pretty succinctly: when all else failed, work with another alcoholic kept him sober, even at heights of his depression. Any contact with others is better than no contact, in person is best in my opinion. Whatever works best for you is best [for you and only you].

clu1992
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frequent contact

big book page 89- discreetly located in the chapter titled working with others-"frequent contact with newcomers and with each other is the bright spot of our lives". It doesn't say phone calls, but it also doesn't say it's not phone calls ( I picked up that trick from my son!)
your simply experiencing the joys of working with others. keep it up, it gets funner and funner, if that's a word?

Anonymous
Hi :)

Hi, I just wanted to say hi. I read this forum for quite some time and finally I registered.

PS. Sorry for my English is not perfect yet ...

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